"king me"

i don't need anything at all!!! today i was just thinking about how i've been honest, which sounds a little hauty but it isn't. it's just that i am very happy that i have been forward with people and said how i felt and who i am. because i said it and i meant it, and i will not take it back because it was honest and it was true. and i did not fake anything. and for some reason that made me very happy. i'm not bottling up emotions, it's because i'm letting them all out like the bakers keep their doors open to let out the aroma of fresh bread into the streets. and soon it's not about this or that but it's about the sky i see, and the birds chirping in the windows, and the little flower buds perking up, and the scent of lavender in the air. and you know life goes on.

In Normandy (northern France) at the battle grounds of the second world war, there are still half-destroyed bunkers and and in the fields, hills created by bombs and however horrific it is to see, there were innumerable tiny white flowers covering the battlefield as though the corpses of the dead bodies had little seeds planted in them. and of all colors white, the color of peace and surrender. it was beautiful, it is over. but of course it had to first be tragic and a painful and disheartening at times.

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ok... i heard this song and i just kind of thought to myself, this is how love should be. it isn't complicated, or hurtful, or malintentioned. i need to be much more apprehensive when getting into my next relationship. because love isn't a chess game, and i shouldn't have to guard my pieces as if in opposition. or make them sidestep in some type of formative pattern in order to get what i want or need.

this song may seem a little cliche, but with all universal emotions, it's bound to be: