"to try"

try |trī|
verb ( tries, tried)
1 [ intrans. ] make an attempt or effort to do something : [with infinitive ] he tried to regain his breath | I started to try and untangle the mystery | I decided to try writing fiction | none of them tried very hard | [ trans. ] three times he tried the maneuver and three times he failed.

trying:
it does not mean anything to me. in some languages the word "try" does not exist. i don't want it to exist in my language. i will or i won't i do or i don't. i live or i die, i'm loud or i'm shy. i hate the word try. it signifies such obscurity, it doesn't mean anything. because who knows how hard you're trying, or if you're appearing to try all while wanting the inverse of what you're working towards!

(breathe)